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Dear 2012: I think we need to break up.

Dear 2012,

I am not sure what it is that I am looking for in a calendar year, but I do know it wasn’t you.  So, because of this, I am afraid we must end our relationship with each other.  I wish I could say that I am sad to see you go. But, I’m not.

I understand you must be going through a very difficult time.  It must be hard to know you have an expiration date.  You only have a short 365 days (or in this case, 366 days) to make an impact on my life.  You wanted every moment to count.  But, I am afraid I need more than what you have to offer me.  So, after this 366 days together, I find I must say good-bye to you.

It’s not you.  It’s me.

You and I had a very mercurial relationship.  You were filled with soaring highs and crushing lows.  You were like a roller coaster.  In one instance you were THRILLING and I couldn’t get enough of you – and in the next you plunged me into the depths, bringing bile into my mouth as I willed the nausea to stop.  At times I was begging for the ride to go HIGHER and FASTER and at others I was begging to get off.  But, just like on a roller coaster, I was strapped into you, my dear 2012, until the ride was over.  There was no getting off early.  No matter how much I begged.

Unfortunately, 2012 you will be remembered for your lows.  Although, I must say, the highs were some of the most amazing experiences in my life.  Ones I will not soon forget.  Ones filled with love and joy and happiness and breath-taking adventures.  You just didn’t finish well.  And it doesn’t matter how brilliant you are in the middle, it’s how you finish that really matters.

So, 2012, know you made a profound impact on my life.  But, I am ready to see what else there is out there for me.  I’m not saying 2013 will be any better.   I have to give it a chance.  I owe it to myself.

Farewell, 2012.

Don’t let the door hit you on the ass on your way out.

About Susan D.

Single mother of three. Teacher. Amateur Jewelry Designer. Singer. Hack writer. Trying to keep sane - as well as I can.

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