I am not sure what it is that I am looking for in a calendar year, but I do know it wasn’t you. So, because of this, I am afraid we must end our relationship with each other. I wish I could say that I am sad to see you go. But, I’m not.
I understand you must be going through a very difficult time. It must be hard to know you have an expiration date. You only have a short 365 days (or in this case, 366 days) to make an impact on my life. You wanted every moment to count. But, I am afraid I need more than what you have to offer me. So, after this 366 days together, I find I must say good-bye to you.
It’s not you. It’s me.
You and I had a very mercurial relationship. You were filled with soaring highs and crushing lows. You were like a roller coaster. In one instance you were THRILLING and I couldn’t get enough of you – and in the next you plunged me into the depths, bringing bile into my mouth as I willed the nausea to stop. At times I was begging for the ride to go HIGHER and FASTER and at others I was begging to get off. But, just like on a roller coaster, I was strapped into you, my dear 2012, until the ride was over. There was no getting off early. No matter how much I begged.
Unfortunately, 2012 you will be remembered for your lows. Although, I must say, the highs were some of the most amazing experiences in my life. Ones I will not soon forget. Ones filled with love and joy and happiness and breath-taking adventures. You just didn’t finish well. And it doesn’t matter how brilliant you are in the middle, it’s how you finish that really matters.
So, 2012, know you made a profound impact on my life. But, I am ready to see what else there is out there for me. I’m not saying 2013 will be any better. I have to give it a chance. I owe it to myself.
Don’t let the door hit you on the ass on your way out.