Melancholia – (n) – The state of being melancholy.
I have been in a state of melancholy recently.
Maybe it has something to do with school being out, and having way to much time to think.
But, mostly, it is because I can’t seem to turn my mind off. Oh, how I wish there was an off switch. Better yet, I wish there was something I could do to wipe my brain.
As the “summer” progresses (being the school summer as technically we are still in spring), I find my mind going back to where I was last summer. Things that I was doing. Things that we were doing. And that causes me to become melancholy. Dates on the calendar, or events that have passed, or songs being played, bring me back to what at the time I believed was the most magical time of my life. A new beginning. A new life.
To paraphrase that song by The Kinks – “Melancholia will destroy you.”
Now, to get to work on developing that mind-eraser…