To what extent is your blog a place for your own self-expression and creativity vs. a site designed to attract readers? How do you balance that? If sticking to certain topics and types of posts meant your readership would triple, would you do it?
My dear readers, I want you to know I love and appreciate each and every one of you. And no, I am not just saying that so soften you up for what I am about to say. I’m just not that kind of girl.
But, this is not about you. It is about me. This blog was established as an outlet for my thoughts and creativity. Ok. Mostly for my thoughts. And while I am happy that my writings have struck a chord with you, I write what I write for me. Well that, and to send cryptic messages to a certain person – and you know who you are. 😉
I kid. I’m a kidder.
Don’t get me wrong, I am THRILLED to have you follow me. And yes, there are times when I will repeatedly hit the refresh button to update my stats like a metaphorical crack pipe. But, I also know, my dear dear 84 followers (not counting my Facebook friends) is a tiny small compared to others. However, I do get a big ol’ smile on my face when I get a new follower. I also know that while my 115 top views day is a drop in the bucket for some of you, it made me feel a little giddy to reach “double digits.” Don’t even get me started on following the world map to see where my readers are from! I’ve had to look up some of the countries! But, I get a little sense of awe when I see how far flung some y’all are!
And while it might be pretty cool to have my readership soar, it is also a little daunting. I am a bit of a people pleaser. I am afraid I would be so much pressure to feel as if I needed to please so many people! What if I hurt someone’s feelings with something I’ve said(which trust me – I have managed to do)? What if people don’t like what I have to say? What if I can’t think of anything to say? OH NO!!!! Get me a Xanax, here comes a panic attack!
Is it just me, or have a been a little more ramblier than usual? Me thinks so…
So, hugs and kisses to each of you who read me. Thank you for stepping into my world. But, know that I’m gonna write whatever I’m gonna write. Who knows what it might actually be?!